tired

I'm TIRED.

I'm just tired.

The To Do list has never been more neverending for me than now. There is no light at the end of the road. There is just more road. More stuff to do.

I need to multi-task in order to survive. And while I'm working on those things, there's always other things clamoring for my attention...responsibilities to manage...decisions to make...someone needing my help...a gift to buy...a party to attend...even doing fun things is becoming a drain on time...not to mention the billion and one other things I really ought to be doing as well.

I'm tired!!!
How do I rest in You, Lord?
How do I find joy in You? And not just feel resentment toward all the ToDo's, viewing them as burdens instead of approaching them cheerfully cuz I enjoy it or want to?

I'm tired.

And really it's not like I don't want to help people. I DO. It's why I want to be a librarian! But these days, I can't help but note the added restriction on time that gives me...the added pressure...the added strain.

And when I tell this to that person...then they get defensive. I'm always too busy to help. I always have to be reminded. I'm never available. So that's my fault too. It's my fault I'm tired. It's my fault I'm too busy. It's my fault I snap when asked repeatedly to help them with something. Fine...they'll just get someone else...they'll pay for the help. Cuz I'm a bad person. And I can't do it.

I wonder how much of this is self-induced. I'm sure a lot. But I don't know what to do about it. What to do? What to do? Too much thinking. Too much work. Too much stuff.

I'm constantly on the brink of drowning.
HELP!

Web 2.0 poster

There's a neat poster on Flickr with a bunch of Web 2.0 technologies embedded in it. Can you recognize them? I don't know a lot of them, but it's kind of neat and something I wanna explore some more. I like how users were able to add boxes around parts they recognized to label & add the links to identify stuff.

summer school sucks

Ok. So summer session started on Monday. It's so hard to concentrate. And it doesn't help that the classes are all online cuz I have to keep track of all the assignments and what I'm supposed to be doing all on my own....the profs don't seem particularly organized either. It's like there are multiple places that I have to look to find out what I need to do. Ah well. I'm just complaining cuz it sucks to have to be back in school already!!

FYI, I have no more daytime minutes on my cell phone until Friday...so I probably won't pick up if you call before 9pm. I'll do text msgs tho, cuz they're just $0.10 ea while extra minutes are $0.45/min!!!! craziness!

And lastly, on top of school and some prepping I have to do for tutoring...I need to plan a bridal shower for June 30. Since I'm the only bridesmaid...I'm sorta on my own. Thankfully, the bride wants to keep it simple. But I've gotta come up with favors for the ~15 guests...and some way to put together the recipes & family advice she wants...Any suggestions?? :)

HALLELUJAH!

Just turned in my last paper for the semester.
WHEW! what a relief...this semester's finally over.

What shall I do with my precious 2 weeks before summer school?
I definitely wanna get some primping done (hair, mani/pedi, eyebrows)...I also need to see the dentist! But first on my agenda is to watch some finales and shop for a bridesmaid dress (eeeek! gotta get it before June!)

I sorta wanna go on a trip, but i'm too tired to even think about planning one. *sigh*
ok. time to start my break now!
woo hoo!

Final website

Ok...so if you wonder why I'm always so busy in silly little grad school, I'm mostly writing papers and doing research. But this semester, I took an XHTML/CSS class so the final was an informational website! Mine is a Guide to Taipei. And I just finished it. (It's due tonight). It'll only be up for a few days while the prof grades. (If you refresh the homepage a few times, you can randomly rotate through the banners I created.)

Now, I just have 1 last project to go....It's due Thur night. *sigh* Just a few more days to go, and then I can look forward to 2 weeks of semi-break before summer school starts. *whimper* (yes, I'm feeling very sorry for myself.)

can't stop that icky feeling

Have you ever started the day off feeling ok and then one little thing happens, and it totally ruins the good mood? And then it just seems like a bunch of sucky things happen, that probably normally wouldn't phase you, but today, it all adds up to major suckiness? Once this happens, I find it really hard to shake the associated icky-ness and just go on with the day. For some reason, I feel the need to wallow in it and just be blah. Like it'd be wrong to let myself drop it and think happy thoughts instead. Weird eh?

On an unrelated note, my boss is out sick again today...I'm bored at work and debating if I should just leave early. What a waste of the travel time...*sigh*

awwww...

Just had to share this, cuz it's sooo cute!

What's your take on schooling?

I'm really debating upon just getting thru school as fast as possible to get a job & real experience VS. really taking my time to really learn the stuff from my classes & enjoy the process & experience.

This'll obviously impact how many classes I decide to take each semester, etc. So what's your take on schooling? Get it over with & move on? Or enjoy & savor it while you can?

checks galore

oh yes...I've been meaning to post about my new checks!
I've finally nearly used up my first batch of checks (which were super boring) and so I ordered new, pretty ones. A little too caught up with the excitement of it, I forgot that it'd taken me 8-10 years to finish the 2 boxes (~200 checks) I'd gotten originally, so I got 400!! So now, I find myself with enough checks to last me till probably 2020 (especially with online bill pay!!)...hehe *sigh* But you must agree that they are quite good looking, no? :)

VisualDNA

Got from Bob...

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a little helpdesk humor

small praises

Today I realized something soo cool.

• It was overcast but no rain on Monday, when I had to ride the light rail and walk to campus.
• It POURED down so hard on Tues, when I had to stay in all day to work on assignments. (But the rain thankfully cleaned my car of the bird poo that I had just noticed and realized I didn't to wash off soon)
• And today it's bright and sunny, when I had to return to campus (and thus, walk to/from the light rail station)
• And Tomorrow, when I have class again, it's forecasted to be sunny as well!

Yay!! God is so merciful! In the midst of sucky projects and deadlines, He still lightens my burdens and gives me blessings. :)

DST woes

Though I'm not positive that these are all due to DST or maybe to the warmer weather, but the fact that they occurred all around the same time seems too coincidental!

1. forgot to set time on my VCR --> didn't record TAR & 24
2. legs were like rubber on Monday --> very hard to bike, so had to lighten my workout
3. really tired despite ~8 hrs of sleep each night! --> getting really late starts to my days and not getting as much work done as I want/need/plan
4. brain was mush on Wed --> ......but at least i didn't have to use it much at work yesterday :)
   

On the bright side, ultimate's back starting tonite! yay! can't wait. hopefully, my legs will be working again, and I'll remember how to throw a frisbee.

Work's been good. Mostly clerical stuff so far, but I'm starting a longer-term project that sounds interesting, so I can't wait!! But I'm discovering that even though I only work 2 days a week (5 hrs each day), I'm not gonna be able to get much done on those days cuz I've got to add 2 hrs for travel (no employee parking for student assistants!!! therefore, no guaranteed parking spaces...so, I'm not gonna get a parking pass...thus, I must ride light rail to work) and I'm not waking up before 10am (see #3 above). And I have yg right after work on Fridays. Which means that I'm gonna have to be extra productive on all the other days. *sigh* Which probably also means that my weekends will have to be productive as well, since school's picking up and I've got a bunch of projects and papers due from now till mid-May. I don't even think I'll be able to get much of a break during spring break, cuz I have 2 days of work and then leaving on Fri for a wedding in LA. Man! I can't WAIT for this semester to be over. Then I can look forward to 2 weeks of blissful break before summer session begins (yes, that's right, I'll be taking summer school for the one summer break I get in this Master's program *cry*).

Ok. Enough whining. Back to chugging along. :)

Gosh. I've been meaning to update, but just haven't gotten around to it.

So..latest news with me is that I got a part-time job at the King Library!!!! YAY!! :) I'm gonna be working on the information literacy program (to describe & instruct on library resources/usage) that's required for freshmen. So i won't be out in the reference desk or anything...but still...i'll be working in the library! i'll even have a pass that gives me access to..um...ok. just the office...but i'll have a key card! such power! hehe my first day's today (in just 10 hrs), so i'm a little nervous, cuz i think they have high expectations of me so i really hope i can deliver!!

In other news, happy birthday to me! :D *sigh* i'm getting old. But on the plus side, that also means I get to have lots of fun for like a week cuz of all the celebrations with friends & family. woo hoo! hee hee So I think it's gonna be really hard to concentrate on school for the next week. eek!

happy valentine's day!

omg! i went to the store to get some flowers for my mom for v-day...and guess how much a single rose cost?
$6!!! a SINGLE ROSE too!!
then I went to the drug store and it was slightly better..there a teeny, tiny, half wilted red rose would only set you back $2.50. And a small bouquet of red & white carnations?? um...$7!!! i can't believe how crazy this day is. anyhow....just wanted to wish you all a Happy Valentine's Day! Here's a rose from me to you! :)

(oh yeah, so for my mom, i ended up going home, going to the backyard and cutting some flowers for her. thankfully, there was 1 bush of red ones and 1 bush of pink ones...talk about the perfect colors! Thank God!!)

asian singer!

i don't follow american idol...but the asian name "paul kim" (from saratoga no less!) in the same headline was enough to get me to click on the news link and find out more. check out his audition! yay! we finally have a replacement for william hung to represent us.

2/12 update: got a new youtube link...hopefully it stays up longer. :)

i'm an m&m

Me as an m&m touring the world! Create your own look here (link & distraction courtesy of Bob)!

It's so good to be a child of God.
that i can tell Him absolutely everything on my mind...uncensored, unfiltered, and as totally completely emotional as i'm feeling. and that He actually wants to hear it too!

this may seem out of the blue...don't really feel like explaining the context, just marveling once again at how easy it is to forget simple truths. Have a great (superbowl) weekend everyone!

ideas please!

I need to create a personal Web page containing any content I like excluding information-based content. This personal Web page will be added to in subsequent lessons, so the content should be rich enough to consist of 5 to 6 pages by the end of the semester. Topics like travel, food/recipes, hobbies, music, art, recreational activities, etc, would work fine - be creative! I'll be working on the project starting this week. eek! I'm far from creative so if you have any ideas, please let me know!

beauty campaign

Beauty today is soooo distorted by the media. even though it's probably something that all women know in our heads, it's still seems so hard to embrace how we look..and see the beauty in our appearance (cuz let's face it, being beautiful on the inside might be more important...but we still CARE and want to be beautiful on the outside as well!!). Check out this clip from Dove about their new campaign for beauty. I hope they succeed in making a difference & changing our perceptions!

update on my life: school started. school sucks. :)