tired

I'm TIRED.

I'm just tired.

The To Do list has never been more neverending for me than now. There is no light at the end of the road. There is just more road. More stuff to do.

I need to multi-task in order to survive. And while I'm working on those things, there's always other things clamoring for my attention...responsibilities to manage...decisions to make...someone needing my help...a gift to buy...a party to attend...even doing fun things is becoming a drain on time...not to mention the billion and one other things I really ought to be doing as well.

I'm tired!!!
How do I rest in You, Lord?
How do I find joy in You? And not just feel resentment toward all the ToDo's, viewing them as burdens instead of approaching them cheerfully cuz I enjoy it or want to?

I'm tired.

And really it's not like I don't want to help people. I DO. It's why I want to be a librarian! But these days, I can't help but note the added restriction on time that gives me...the added pressure...the added strain.

And when I tell this to that person...then they get defensive. I'm always too busy to help. I always have to be reminded. I'm never available. So that's my fault too. It's my fault I'm tired. It's my fault I'm too busy. It's my fault I snap when asked repeatedly to help them with something. Fine...they'll just get someone else...they'll pay for the help. Cuz I'm a bad person. And I can't do it.

I wonder how much of this is self-induced. I'm sure a lot. But I don't know what to do about it. What to do? What to do? Too much thinking. Too much work. Too much stuff.

I'm constantly on the brink of drowning.
HELP!

Web 2.0 poster

There's a neat poster on Flickr with a bunch of Web 2.0 technologies embedded in it. Can you recognize them? I don't know a lot of them, but it's kind of neat and something I wanna explore some more. I like how users were able to add boxes around parts they recognized to label & add the links to identify stuff.

summer school sucks

Ok. So summer session started on Monday. It's so hard to concentrate. And it doesn't help that the classes are all online cuz I have to keep track of all the assignments and what I'm supposed to be doing all on my own....the profs don't seem particularly organized either. It's like there are multiple places that I have to look to find out what I need to do. Ah well. I'm just complaining cuz it sucks to have to be back in school already!!

FYI, I have no more daytime minutes on my cell phone until Friday...so I probably won't pick up if you call before 9pm. I'll do text msgs tho, cuz they're just $0.10 ea while extra minutes are $0.45/min!!!! craziness!

And lastly, on top of school and some prepping I have to do for tutoring...I need to plan a bridal shower for June 30. Since I'm the only bridesmaid...I'm sorta on my own. Thankfully, the bride wants to keep it simple. But I've gotta come up with favors for the ~15 guests...and some way to put together the recipes & family advice she wants...Any suggestions?? :)